Okay, I sexually abused my baby sister when I was 11. How to make amends and start healing process? (lengthy)?

My cousin molested me when I was seven. I had blocked it out by several years. He never specifically told me he was sorry, but he made himself a better person and that is what I wanted. He is now serving in Japan helping the victims of the earthquake and has a life and child. He was about your age. I think you might consider seeing a counselor, and if you are still young you can say it is about academic stress or something. You have some serious issues to work out regarding yourself and the hatred toward yourself. This isn't something to concern with yahoo answers, none of us are specifically trained in how to heal you mentally, and it isn't going to get you very far. I can only share my own story.